One of the most difficult things that I have been able to do is to just submit my tumultuous feelings to the LORD. Certainly there is a rationalization that my feelings are just that--mine. All emotions that any person experiences are given to us from our LORD and it was HIS plan to give those emotions back to HIM so that HE could help when they are too much. Proverbs 4 is one of the most powerful chapters for me because I am able to express wisdom about when and how to express my emotions safely and without fear of judgment. Through wisdom, I can gain understanding about what angst I might be experiencing. This is not easy; at times, it is nothing that I care to venture into. However, it is wisdom to say, "LORD, I give you my heart." My heart tells me that I am afraid and that I have concerns. Wisdom says "do not enter the path of the wicked" (Prov 4:14). My heart says "I could care less about what others may say", but Wisdom says "let your heart retain my words" (4:4). Wisdom tells us that "keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it spring the issues of life" (4:23). No matter the anxiety, or the angst, I choose to say "I give you my heart". It is not an easy thing to have the heart examined by the LORD. But trust and believe that what is precious to us is precious to the LORD. If it matters to us, it matters to HIM.
Giving on. Encouraging on!
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